March 2012
3 posts
February 2012
2 posts
January 2012
1 post
November 2011
6 posts
Reason
Thinking about going back to school next year to get my MFA. trying to put my finger on the reason. Have I failed as a photographer? Am I trying to better myself? Do I just want to go back and have fun for two years? Am I running from something? If so, what?
Sunday
Had a great day shooting on Sunday. I posted a few earlier and should post more later. They haven’t been “worked” yet but I think they still are a good preview.
Get
I’m lost and I need to get somewhere. I know most of my followers follow me for my photography and very sadly there’s not much of that lately.
Things have changed and I’m trying to get back to a place of creativity again. I’m failing in that endeavor. Somethings just aren’t working like they did before and I need to find a different path. I guess it’s more...
October 2011
4 posts
I break apart
When I slow down and think about you and what has happened I break apart. It doesn’t matter if it’s for the best, I don’t hold together. Things slip and that ache fills into my chest, and behind my eyes. The strength that is left only wants to work towards repairing the situation and it’s blind work is just reopening the wound.
I will push through. I will.
I only hope...
Elusive Sleep
It’s been a long day. Lots of running around. I ran a mile and half around noon. Then I had lunch with my mother and photographed my cousin’s newborn daughter after that. Then I zipped home to gather my soccer stuff for an indoor game and went to play. I ran a lot, grabbed dinner and then worked photos. It’s been a busy twelve hours, with lots of physical activity thrown in...
Scariest comic I've ever read in my life. And it's... →
aetatiss:
whydoihaveablog:
Fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck. I screamed and shut my laptop. You’re welcome and I’m sorry.
I screamed.
Pretty good, creepy stuff
Her Scent
She stayed with me for a few days a couple of weeks ago. I could still smell her scent whenever I went to my bed. Yesterday she went to “meet” someone. Not sure whether it was that, if the scent simple faded, or if it was all in my mind but, I didn’t detect the scent last night.
September 2011
1 post
It could be so much worse.
Life is hard. Sometimes you get lost and things don’t seem to be working out. As humans we define our existence by our misery. You’re problems seem real bad even if they are not in most cases. Keeping perspective is so important. Because REAL problems are out there. Life-altering, life-ending, life-erasing problems can find you so very quickly.
I can’t say much about it but, I...
August 2011
2 posts
Telling
It’s funny how sometimes in life you will, in your mind, decide to “reach out” to someone. So, you make the attempt, only to get no response. The person who you were reaching out to isn’t there. Isn’t available.
Timing is so important.
Is it a matter of fate intervening to say this isn’t what you should be doing? Is it merely an obstacle put in your path to...
strange place to be
It amazes me sometimes how things can change so much in twelve hours. There seemed to be a bit of peace in this struggle with a certain female. However, this morning all that had shifted to contention. It’s a strange place to be because, I don’t know if there’s really anything I can do. Every action is misconstrued and I am not sure what can make it right. All the silly...
July 2011
1 post
Awake
Woke up this morning, early. Not sure why? I want to sleep more but find myself compelled to wake up. I wonder if I dreamt a dream that has spurred me awake but it’s content has dissipated upon waking.
My mind is racing. I’ve already contacted an old friend and then perused my Facebook friends to see their pictures in order to “update” myself quickly about what may, or may...
May 2011
2 posts
April 2011
1 post
March 2011
5 posts
Drive
Got my car fixed today after driving it crippled over the last month. So I’m out driving and have to resist the temptation to drive somewhere far away.
Photo shoots
It’s amazing how much better life is when I’m shooting on a regular basis.
February 2011
8 posts
Sunday
Lovely evening of shooting with one of my favorite models, Dame Lebeau. Then we followed it up with our semi-annual portrait together.
Change
The wind feels good tonight. I stand face forward into it trying to listen. It tells me of change that is coming but I can’t “hear” or “feel” the details. I’m not versed in it like I could/should be.
This next month will be interesting. I’m just hoping that I can find the rhythm of things; to place myself where I can best suit the needs of my self and...
Dirty Show
Well, the Dirty Show started this weekend. I was pleased to learn that I actually got three pieces in the show. Boy, I wish I could have gone. I’ll try to post the images here soon.
January 2011
4 posts
Two
So, in an amazing display of “just when you thought it was over, it wasn’t” I got notified today that I got not one, but two, pieces into this year’s Dirty Show in Detroit.
Late nights
I wish I were more financially successful. Mainly because I like the night and wish that I didn’t have to go to a regular day job.
I know it sounds kinda stupid.
Early frost
So, tonight I learned that a good friend will probably be dying soon. I guess he’s already dying so, I guess I should say that doctors think he will be dead soon. He’s thirty-one.
Death is part of life. I understand that, yet I found myself ready to cry shortly after hearing the news.
I tried to write this entry a couple of weeks ago. However, I found myself at a loss of words. So...
December 2010
1 post
Road trip
Heading to Dallas tomorrow. Going to be doing stats for the Big 12 Championship game. It’s going to be nice to get out of town for a couple of days.
I’ll be heading down with one of my two best friends. It’ll be nice to talk and throw some ideas out and get some feedback. Road trips with friends always reenergize me.
I need to weigh some options and think about some things....
October 2010
1 post
Thinking I need to be better. I’m doing work. I’m staying busy, but still not getting enough done. I should be better.
Control. Self-control is necessary. Stay focused and work harder. I know what I should be doing. So I should start doing better.
Life has been pretty good lately. I think I need to see past the distractions.
September 2010
1 post
Controlling my fandom
So, life’s been pretty busy as of late. That is definitely good but, it’s been tough keeping up as of late.
And now comes football season. Soon it’ll be basketball season and I’m wondering how I’ll manage to do all that I want and need to do. Thus, in an attempt to keep things in control I’m not playing fantasy football this year.
While it was a little tough...
June 2010
1 post
Artwork
It’s always nice to get out and see artwork. It reminds me of a lot of the things I’m doing wrong in my own work. I should shoot more and think less. Focus is great but sometimes you can miss some of the essence that makes art so great.
Of course it also can point out what you’re doing well. I think that I do many things well. Seeing some work let’s me know that focus and...
May 2010
2 posts
Musing
I think I may have added a new muse to my collection.
“It seems I actually get things right, but I can’t understand what I did...”
– Toad the Wet Sprocket
February 2010
10 posts
“KILLER whales. Not Cuddle Whales. Not Soft Whales. They’re called...”
– Warren Ellis
busy
So things have certainly picked up and I’m pretty happy. I’ve been running ragged here the past few days but, creating some work that I’m very proud of. I’ve posted a few pics from a shoot that I did Friday. A special thank you to Scott Van Eck for his brilliant and beautiful air brush skills that surpassed my vision. Of course Toxic Goddess Eclipse was spot on as well and...
